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Update time! yay! try to contain your excitement out there:) Haven't rec'd any comments recently so it may be safe to assume that I'm just talking to myself on here at this point. Anyfertily, I went to the specialist last Thursday and good news...no cancer cysts.Woohoo! Also, I started a new fertility med. Well, started and completed in one sitting. 8 pills that is. Funny story about this particular medication (Femara)...one night I was taking a bath and Keith came in and said 'funny thing about vagina...my boss used to take it and got pregnant right away. I think we should try it." Gotta love a man who starts out with that, lol! Two days later the Dr. said it sounded like a great choice. Must I say that I have a lovely husband. He drives me apeshit alot of times but he is sweet. He makes sure to be at most of my appointments. Most is 99% and I am so lucky. I always tell him no need to go and he looks at me like I'm crazy. So blessed to have such support from him considering I haven't had much in my entire life. Some people have ventured in showing me some support but it's rare I feel it is genuine. We both have a good feeling this time so I hope we're right. Don't know what it is but something is telling me that something is going to happen soon. I hope I didn't just jinx myself but I just want to be a mommy:)

Great weekend!

Had a really nice weekend and hope all you readers did, too. I had a wonderful lunch with a friend on Saturday. The restaurant is one of my favorites. Everything is fresh and from the restaurant's own garden. Well, most things. Fresh squeezed mimosas, etc, etc. So friggin' good! Good food and good conversation always a plus:) Went to the outlets and got soem great deals at Banana Republic. Love that place. You spend $75 and get $400 worth of clothes--not bad, not bad at all. Then, yesterday went to San Marcos and floated the Guadelupe River with Keith. It was so nice out and nice to spend time with him. Even though we got into a fight it was all good. I just wish he would learn to relax and just go with things. He's so uptight! At the beginning I lost a flip flop and he started to lecture me on my shoe choice (rubber flip flops) and couldn't believe I lost a shoe. Ummm...it's a fucking river and sometimes your shoes fall off. Then, a random guy found it up the river and returned it to me. How nice! Yay, I had both shoes again. Take that, Keith:) Floating along having a fun time and we get to the end. The end has rapids and he wanted to go. I told him I'd get out and meet him after he was done. No, he insisted that I do them, too. But, he wasn't going with me. I told him not unless he was going with me because I knew I would end up past the check point for the bus to leave. Then, he would get pissy.  He said, 'just have fun!' and, pushed me down. Of course I end up much further down and he's yelling at me. I can't stop because it's a river, I have his cooler and shoes on top of me and am stuck. I finally was able to grab a tree branch to stop. He refused to help me and was yelling it was all my fault and was really pissed. Why can't he just help me and not yell at me like I'm a child? I told him that next time I'll control the river's flow and slow it down so I can stop sooner. He gave me a dirty look and said it was me and not the river. What the hell is he talking about? I have no control over mother nature you jerk! Stop being an ass and ruining our day. Well, he lost a shoe and I threw his other one in the river at him to get it. He didn't and kept yelling at me. I got out and walked to the bus with him in his bare feet. Funny how he ran his mouth earlier and was the one missing the shoes in the end. I was nice and carried both tubes and the cooler because he had no shoes on. He's lucky I did that after how he acted. Then, I get the jeep and pull it around to pick him up since his feet were burning from the pavement. He gets in the car and says that he had fun with a genuine smile. I really expected a big fight to ensue. I am happy I was wrong. Maybe he realized he was being a jerkface and calmed down. I know he'll never admit it. Then, we went to McDonald's and got the new Rolo McFlurry. Yum! Try it if you haven't yet. So good. We continued the evening and had a nice time together watching TV and hanging out. I just wish he would take deep breaths and calm down in life. We would be so much happier if he would. I love the man but really wish he would stop taking things out on me and flipping out over stupid stuff. Been saying this for years and as each one goes by I just keep wishing for him to answer it.

Remember me?

I took my hunny to dinner yesterday and rented Little Fockers to watch. I take Keith out every year on June 10th and on July 1st in memory of his brother, Brian who passed away ten years ago yesterday in an accident. July 1st is Brian's birthday.  Being with a man who shows little emotion and doesn't talk a whole lot I feel this is a nice gesture for him because he wouldn't do it  for himself. So, we have a tradition and I know he appreciates it and he can take some extra time and have a nice night out and all he has to do is pick where to eat and reflect on his brother. So, he picked Mama Fu's (he loves them I don't but no complaining today:) ). Watched the movie and shared a bottle of the yummy wine we got from the vineyards in New York last month. In between dinner and the movie Keith went to Cabela's and I took a nap. We had met at dinner because I went from work and he from home. Anyways, he returned with the biggest smile and said he got Ruthy (our coonhound) a present. He got her this awesome duck toy that shoots in the air and she chases it and brings it back to him. They were playing and having a great time. Butch (our pug) eventually joined in after Ruthy got tired. I sat on the porch and watched them all play and I just love to see Keith smile and have fun. He loved it, I loved it and so did the dogs. It was wonderful. Brings you back to the fact that it truly is the simple things in life that matter and you remember.

A dear friend had her son yesterday. I can't wait to meet him! However, he's in the NICU due to breathing problems. Prayers and love being sent their way. Baby and mommy are doing well per her reports and the  baby is getting stronger. Thank God. There's an old saying that out of death comes life and now with Keith and I's tradition on this sad day there is celebration for a new life and future.

I wish I could have met Brian but he passed away soon before I met Keith. But, I hear stories of nothing but love and adoration for this forever young man from their family and friends. He was taken too soon but made a big impact on loved ones. It makes me want to do better so that when I pass away people will remember me with smiles and stories of love and laughter.