Wednesday, September 21, 2011

2 Pounds...better than nothin' I say!

Excited I lost 2 pounds since Sunday! Yay! Just a reminder that I gotta stick to the plan with WW to get where I want to be. I've put on so much weight and just feel terrible about myself. Some people say I look fine but then I have to rethink their sanity bc I see a huge hog. I know I'm not obese but that doesn't matter. What matters is how I feel which is poopy. Every year that goes by I think to myself 'there goes 1 more year that I could have been a better person.' I want to feel confident and feel comfortable in my own skin. Some would say that I am confident but they couldn't be more wrong. I use my trickery all the time to trick people into thinking that I am a happy go lucky girl but really I'm in constant battle with my greatest enemy---me. This enemy of mine causes lots of problems in my life and makes me feel inferior. Which is crazy because I'm such a huge advocate for treating every single person the same and that is dignity and respect. Yet I can't treat myself with dignity and respect. How the hell does that work? You got me! When I figure it out I'll let you in on my little secret to happiness. However, I'm working on this at the moment and I expect it to end on a good note. I suspect that getting my innards right will result in getting my outward right. I'm challenging my enemy to a duel. Hmmm...I need a name for this asshole enemy of mine. Let's call her "UnhappinessandAnger."

No comments:

Post a Comment