Time to catch up so here goes: well, took my pregnancy test bright and early on Tuesday before our flight hoping to land and spread happy news. As you probably know by now being that was a week ago and the test was negative. I was sad but of course expected the bad news. I woke Keith up for our flight with a kiss and let him know the news. He said the test was wrong. Poor guy. I said it’s right unfortunately and was determined not to let this affect our anticipated trip to see his family and our friends. Well, this lasted for a short time. We get to the airport bright and early at 5am and things are ok. I’m at peace with the constant negative pregnancy tests and will just let loose and party. Well, we board the plane and sit for over an hour. There’s a ‘maintenance issue.’ We deboard the plane and with the other 100 passengers fight to get onto the next flight out. This was how do I say…f*cking annoying. We were so excited to get out of TX and off to a good time and now our plans were ruined…we would have to board 4 planes to get to our final destination. This led to a 20 hour travel day and we lost lots of important time with loved ones. Well, this would make any normal human being upset but to 2 sad people who can’t have a baby and got another batch of this bad news this made everything worse and we of course did not want to even go there and admit this was the problem. The hubby and I were at each other’s throats all day long. I was in a horrible mood and maybe my mood made his worse but no matter how you look at it it wasn’t good. Bickering and bickering that led to a drunken argument the next day. Who’s to know if the fight would have ensued if there hadn’t been a vineyard tour filled with good wine but it did. Which, I must say I had the best time with a fantastic friend and had such beautiful weather. Our camera got broke by the bartender taking our pictures. This was fuel added to the hushed tension between the spouse and I. But, let’s take a quick minute to laugh…the friend I was with is a curse to cameras. Seriously. Everytime we get together my camera gets broken somehow. This is the 3rd camera in a year in a half! WTH!! But, we have to laugh and joke about it at this point. There’ll be lots more broken in our lifetime of friendship ahead of us. But, anyways we get into a stupid argument---I was told I was being a bitch because I said I was fat –well I am- and that ‘offended’ my friend and her boyfriend according to the hubby. Whatchu talkin’ bout Willis? I ask my girl about this said offensiveness and she said of course not and that we all had a great time. I thought so too. Well, what’s the best way to upset a girl who witnessed years of domestic violence and was apart of it as a child? To call her a bitch. What’s the best way to keep her upset? To keep saying she’s a bitch and just not understanding this is a no-no. We’re drunk and mad and now off to spend the night with the inlaws. Great-we’re mad at each other and we’re drunk and I have a feeling it won’t be hard to disguise the disgust we both have for each other at this point. I have a breakdown later to my mother-in-law. Poor woman. She is so sweet and caring and is cursed to have a wreck of a daughter in law. Any-tears later off to bed. I wake up early and am laying in bed and am still mad at him and think this is it…we’re done. He lays next to me and hugs me tight and says he loves me. I melt and am back to realizing I’m with my best friend and we both need to give up the stubbornness and move on. I am forever grateful he took the first step on this one. We ended up having such a great time after this and it was a wonderful vacation. We got to spend a lot of time with my in-laws, who I can’t say enough are some of the best and nicest people I have ever met in my life, and also with many wonderful friends I have not seen in too long. You know that you are in great company and friendships when you can just pick up where you left off without talking for so long. I had the best time catching up with these fine people and was reminded how lucky that I am to have these people in my life. I often feel left behind and forgotten being away from so many of them. But, I am fresh again from all the love they give to me and they probably don’t even know it. As I write this I am somewhere on the way back to Austin in the air and am happy to have had such a great trip but am looking forward to sleeping back in my own bed and being covered with kisses from my most loving doggies. Not really excited to return to work tomorrow but am excited to get back to the daily grind of life I don’t always take the time to appreciate. Oh! And, I just checked my grad school grades and all A’s again!! Yay!! What a wonderful life J
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